Surprises

I'm the worst person at keeping surprises and its not because I can't keep a secret (I can) but its that I get so excited about seeing the person's reaction that I just can't wait. When it comes to birthdays I have to buy presents the day of the birthday because if I buy them earlier I want to give them to the person right away and see their face as they open them. It's the little kid in me. So I have a surprise I'm keeping from the bf and I'm DYING to tell him but I can't. You have no idea how hard it is for me to keep this. I've had to catch myself as I'm on the verge of telling him many times.

So this is how the surprise goes...the bf and I have a long distance relationship which means that we don't see each other but for a couple days every couple months. Now has been the longest since we've seen each other last (10 months to be exact) but we talk everyday and text all the time. Anyway, I'm going to see him in a month because I'll be in town for a wedding, but what he doesn't know is that I'm also flying in for a couple days next week (that's the surprise part). He thinks that my best friend needs to give him something so he can ship it to me, but I'll be the one there to meet him and not my best friend. I'm sooooo excited to see his face when he sees me and I can't wait. Why does a week feel like a year?

Itch

So I've been in the Middle East for a while now and it looks like I'm getting the itch to go home again. Home to me is the US. That's where I was born and lived most of my life. Things have been getting complicated and I feel like I just need to go home and regroup.

Work has officially become weird. One of my colleagues (a much older colleague) has been hitting on me and actually tried to move in for a kiss. I think I actually felt my skin crawl just at the idea that he was standing so close to me. I quickly moved and didn't have to be in an even worse situation. What was he thinking? He is double my age and has daughters my age!!!! I have made a point from the first day at work to wear nothing form fitting and nothing that shows skin. What more should I do? This is one of the downsides of being the only female.

I am hoping that I'll be able to go home and take a break to figure out my next move.

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