That time again....

It's getting to be that time again when I have to pack and go see the bf...I will say that I'm excited to see him..but not that excited to see certain people...my trip means that I'll be seeing that person again and to be honest I'd rather not...but unfortunately there's no way around it........ugh

It seems like the days are taking forever to pass...and I'll admit that I'm not as excited as usual...I don't know what's wrong but if I could get out of going or if I could go somewhere else (like home) I would go in a heartbeat...is that bad???

In Bold

Saw this on Ze2red's post and thought would give it a try.

I am a cuddler.

I am a morning person.

I am an only child.

I am currently in my pajamas.

I am currently pregnant.

I am currently single.

I am currently suffering from a broken heart.

I am left handed.

I am married.

I am addicted to my myspace.

I am online 24/7, even as an away message.

I am a little shy around the opposite gender at first.

I bite my nails.

I can be paranoid at times.

I don’t like anyone.

I enjoy country music.

I enjoy jazz music.

I enjoy smoothies.

I enjoy talking on the phone.

I have a car.

I have a cell phone.

I have/had a hard time paying attention at school.

I have a hidden talent

I have a lot to learn

I have a pet.

I have a tendency to fall for the “wrong” guy/girl

I have all my grandparents

I have at least one brother

I have been to another country

I have been told that I am smart

I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor

I have OR HAD broken a bone

I have Caller I.D. on my phone.

I have changed a diaper

I have changed a lot over the past year.

I have done something illegal.

I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color

I have had major/minor surgery.

I have killed another person

I have had my hair cut within the last week.

I have mood swings

I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life

I have rejected someone before.

I have seen The Lord of the Rings trilogy.

I have seen the television show The O.C.

I like Shakespeare.

I like the taste of blood.

I love to cook.

I like to sing. (only in the car)

I love Michael Jackson

I love sleeping.

I love to play computer games.

I love to shop.

I miss someone right now.

I own 100 CDs or more

I own and use a library card

I read books for pleasure in my spare time.

I sleep a lot during the day.

I strongly dislike math

I watch soap operas on a regular basis.

I will try almost anything once.

I work at a job that I enjoy.

I would classify myself as ghetto.

I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.

I am currently wearing socks.

I am tired.

I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt.

I have had/have a broken heart

Graduated High School.

Smoked cigarettes.

Rode every ride at an amusement park.

Collected something really stupid.

Gone to a rock concert.

Helped someone.

Gone fishing.

Watched four movies in one night.

Gone long periods of time with out sleep.

Lied to someone.

Been dumped.

Failed a class.

Taken a college level course.

Been in a car accident.

Been in a tornado.

Watched someone die.

Been to a funeral.

Burned yourself. (accidentally)

Ran a marathon.

Your parents got divorced.

Cried yourself to sleep.

Spent over $200 in one day.

Flown on a plane.

Cheated on someone.

Been cheated on.

Written a 10 page letter.

Gone skiing.

Been sailing.

Cut yourself.

Had a best friend.

Lost someone you loved.

Shoplifted something.

Been to jail.

Had detention.

Skipped school.

Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.

Stolen books from the library.

Gone to a different country.

Dropped out of school.

Been in a mental hospital.

Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.

Had an online diary.

Fired a gun.

Gambled in a casino.

Had a yard sale.

Been in a school play.

Been fired from a job.

Taken a lie detector test.

Swam with dolphins.

Gone to sea world.

Attempted suicide.

Voted for Pop Idol.(Arabic Super Star or Star Academy)

Written poetry.

Read more than 20 books a year.

Gone to Europe.

Loved someone you couldn’t have.

Had surgery.

Had stitches.

Taken a taxi.

Seen the Washington Monument.

Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.

Had a drug or alcohol problem.

Been in a fist fight. (have a black belt)

Suffered any form of abuse.

Had a hamster.

Petted a wild animal.

Used a credit card.

Gone surfing in California.

Dyed your hair.

Got a tattoo.

Had something pierced.

Got straight A’s.

Your parents sent you to a shrink.

Been handcuffed.

Known someone with HIV or AIDS.

Taken pictures with a webcam.

Started a fire.

Had a party while your parents weren’t home.

Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.

Fake people

I have this thing...I hate fake people...I should probably explain what I mean exactly..

So I'm really bad at being fake around people I don't like..don't get me wrong I will always remain pleasant and diplomatic but I will not treat people I don't like or feel comfortable around the same way I treat those I care about...I feel bad being mean or rude to people I don't care...if you know me well you can tell that I don't like or feel comfortable about a person because I'm quiet whenever they're around and I try to keep my conversation short with them cause I'm afraid there's a big sign on my forehead that says, "I can't fake it...I don't like you..so please stop talking."

However, what I can't stand is when someone keeps going on and on about how they hate someone and then when they're with that person they act like BFFs...I'm in absolute shock that someone can fake is so well..and it leads me to start wondering about that person..if they're that good at faking it...what else could they possibly be faking??

Seriously why can't everyone just be honest to themselves? Isn't it a complete waste of energy to put on the fake BFF face? What's the point of it all?

Unwanted Information

Someone close to me put me in the most awkward situation. We went out together to catch up since I haven't seen her in a long time and a few minutes into our conversation she says she has something important to tell me and I can't tell anyone about it.....she's still dating her bf. Uuuuuuuugggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh It's the same bf that we all hate and the same bf that caused her drama and the same bf who in many people's opinion is a gold digger with no manners. In my mind a voice was screaming "NNNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!"

The evening progressively got worse. So after laying this awful news on me she decides to tell me while we're eating that he just messaged her and he's going to stop by to say hello. That's when my stomach did a back flip and I lost my appetite.

So the gross guy shows up with his ego the size of the world times 2. I'm trying my hardest to remain nice even though he does not deserve it. He starts talking and garbage came out of his mouth. For no reason he decides to insult me. You know those moments when your mind draws a blank from sheer surprise of what you just heard? I drew a blank and now as I think about it I have many perfect responses to his insults. Uuuggghhhh why can't I be rude to people that deserve it?

Now I'm stuck in a situation where I can't tell anyone that she's still dating that annoying-beyond-words individual and I know she needs to get out of that situation. Seriously I didn't want this piece of information and on top of it all I get insulted by this guy.

People get a sense of relief when they share their drama with others but the people that hear it are left with unwanted information and the burden of thinking how to act accordingly.

Ramadan

Happy Ramadan!

I was born and raised in the US and to me Ramadan is just another normal month minus the fact that I'm fasting. I've been living in the Middle East for a couple years now and I'm still not used to the fact that everyone makes a really big deal out of Ramadan. I thought Ramadan is suppose to be about simplicity but it seems like people are going the complete opposite to simplicity. It's all about the food and where to eat, in a way it's like a statement to society as to where you go out during Ramadan.

I don't really understand why people would want to work less hours during Ramadan. I'm used to staying to a normal schedule because it keeps me busy and the day goes by faster. In other words, I don't sit around doing nothing and thinking about how hungry I am, but I guess some people like to just sleep through the day and stay up at night.

In no way am I meaning to offend anyone, I'm still getting used to things.

Happy Ramadan to everyone!

Bucket list

One of the things that I have on my bucket list is to run a half marathon and then ease into a triathlon. So I figure there's no time like the present. Tomorrow will be the start of the training schedule and given the weather outside it will not be a walk in the park. This probably isn't the smartest time to start given that Ramadan is around the corner but I need something to keep me motivated right now.

I'm back...for real this time

Yes yes yes...I'm back for real this time. Vacation is over, back to reality and to me in a way my summer is already over. Now the hard part is to get back into the swing of things. Overall it was a good summer. My goal for the summer was to have fun and I think for the most part I achieved that.

My summer was pretty divided one part spent with my brother and friends, the other part spent with the bf, parents and extended family. This is the longest time I've ever spent with the bf. Yes a little less than a month may not seem long to everyone but for us that was long given our relationship has been long distance. I won't lie we had a couple ripples (aka fights) but we passed them and even though before I may have had a very small doubt if we would last after this vacation I know with no doubt at all that he's the only one that I want to spend the rest of my life with and have as my partner in the roller coaster ride called life. It's the first time in my life where I talked about marriage and didn't feel like I was looking for the first exit sign in sight.

For those who know me well know that I've always seen myself single not because I don't believe in relationships or in marriage but for a number of other reasons. One of which I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up and where in the world I am going to settle down. I will admit I get bored easily and quickly so putting someone else through that was not something I wanted to do but the bf is, in the most indirect way, getting me to change my thoughts about settling down.