Friday, October 15, 2010

Brain overload

Don't you hate it when you're tired and want to sleep but your brain won't give you the rest?

There's a lot on my mind lately but I can't seem to organize my thoughts. One of the things I've been thinking about is my last trip to see the bf. As much as I'd like to say I've moved past everything that happened, I haven't. The whole trip just left a bad taste in my mouth, so much so that my parents are going to visit and I'm not going with them. Usually I would have used their trip as a perfect excuse to go with them to see the bf, but I can't do it.

In my last post I shared my questions about a person and the package they come with and it got me thinking more about his package. If it were him and him alone I would feel like the luckiest girl in the world. He's a good person with a kind heart and is crazy about me, but the package causes drama (as seen during my last vacation) and problems/agruments arise between us because of that package.

So now I'm at a crossroads. Do I tell him honestly everything I don't like about the package even though I know it will upset him or do I use this time away and see if I feel differently?
Ugh, I'm the worst person at faking that everything is ok when there's something bothering me, but I hate the idea of upsetting him.

The more I think about things the more I realize that if he had just stuck up for me I probably wouldn't feel this way. One of these days I'll share the details of everything that happened during that trip, but for now I just wanted to vent a little. Sorry.


  1. is it the same story for everyone?
    i defintly share the same problem, and these last few days i've been toying with many scenarios in my head.
    iguess you should give it a chance at that time away, then see

  2. thanks e...i think you're brain needs the rest..hope everything is ok with you!!!

  3. Hope your mind has some rest soon! I hate it when that happens!

    I think a person has to be honest with their feelings with the person they want to spend the rest of their life with. If that person is truly understanding then they will respect your concerns and try to discuss them with you. It's your right to address any issues you have, and your future children's rights too.

    If a man gets upset just because we're being honest and want to hear some reassurance, then maybe it's something you have to think you want to live with that sort of characteristic for the rest of your life, for instance.

    Just like you're taking into consideration his feelings, he should also take into consideration your feelings in regards with the issues you have with his package.

    Best of luck, hope it all works out!

  4. In our corner of the world, relationships come in a package form more than they do in other places. To ask for the division of the package or to expect the understanding of that request is not always comprehensible. Pitiful? yes, but it is also true.