There's a lot on my mind lately but I can't seem to organize my thoughts. One of the things I've been thinking about is my last trip to see the bf. As much as I'd like to say I've moved past everything that happened, I haven't. The whole trip just left a bad taste in my mouth, so much so that my parents are going to visit and I'm not going with them. Usually I would have used their trip as a perfect excuse to go with them to see the bf, but I can't do it.
In my last post I shared my questions about a person and the package they come with and it got me thinking more about his package. If it were him and him alone I would feel like the luckiest girl in the world. He's a good person with a kind heart and is crazy about me, but the package causes drama (as seen during my last vacation) and problems/agruments arise between us because of that package.
So now I'm at a crossroads. Do I tell him honestly everything I don't like about the package even though I know it will upset him or do I use this time away and see if I feel differently?
Ugh, I'm the worst person at faking that everything is ok when there's something bothering me, but I hate the idea of upsetting him.
The more I think about things the more I realize that if he had just stuck up for me I probably wouldn't feel this way. One of these days I'll share the details of everything that happened during that trip, but for now I just wanted to vent a little. Sorry.